Friday, March 21, 2014

Gotta get back up on that horse, right?

I froze, starring down at the little piece of gold that would probably change my life a little bit. This past week had been amazing but I had a strong feeling that was all about to change. I grabbed the ring, running my fingers over it, turning it a little, and sure enough, engraved right on the inside in tiny little letters read: "My Andrew, always and forever". That asshole.

I grabbed my phone and put my couch back together then headed upstairs, turning on the shower, hopeful that it would help me clear my mind. I grabbed my phone and group texted Lauren and Sky. "Girls day ASAP. Emergency!!" then tossed my phone onto my bed and undressed, stepping under the hot water. I closed my eyes, letting the water hit my face. What was I doing? A married man? Before I knew it I was sobbing. Tears mixing with the shower water as I shaved my legs and shampooed my hair. The pit in my stomach doubling rather than subsiding. And I started crying even harder when I thought about the next time I would see him, knowing that in reality I didn't want this to end. Yes he was married but we could still be friends, right? I mean married guys are allowed to have friends. But let’s face it. Andrew isn't the kind of guy to just have "friends". And in all honesty as bad as this may sound, I wasn't 100% sure I just wanted to only be a friend even under the current circumstances, after all, Andrew made me feel better than any guy I ever dated ever had and the two of us just started hanging out a few days ago.

I reached for a towel, wrapping it around me and shaking my hair to dry it a little then walked out of the bathroom grabbing my phone and walking over to do my makeup and hair.

"Drinks and lunch outside at 1?" Lauren had replied to my earlier text.

"strong drinks are exactly what I need! I will see you guys there!" I sent back.

I French braided my hair effortlessly and threw on a little bit of eye makeup, not in the mood to look like a super model at the moment. Besides, it was too hot out today to try any harder. Just as I was standing to look through my closet my phone started going off. I almost hit ignore upon seeing the unknown number come across my phone but decided to answer at the last minute. "Hello?" I said softly sitting down on my bed.

A man’s voice came across the phone "wow I was uh expecting your voice mail" he exclaimed nervously.

I giggled a little recognizing Coles voice, "would you prefer I didn't answer?" i asked teasingly.

"haha no I just already had it figured out what I was going to say if you didn't answer" he replied laughing "and now I just made myself sound like some pathetic looney" he add when i laughed along with him. I couldn't help but smile at how sweet and nervous he sounded. I have to admit it was pretty nice knowing I could make a guy nervous. "what are you doing on Tuesday?"

"I have work until 5 and then nothing after." I replied, contemplating what I would say is he asked me out. Deciding that if Andrew wanted to play this sneaky behind my back game then I could too. I was definitely not going to let him keep me from getting out there and meeting people. I deserved to be happy too.

"Wanna maybe do something with me?" Cole asked, quietly awaiting my reply.

"I would like that," I said, laughing when I heard him sigh on the other end of the phone.

"Great, I will pick you up at 7." he said before saying goodbye and hanging up.

I smiled as I locked my phone and tossed it onto the bed, walking over to pick something out for lunch with the girls. I'll be damned if I let this little thing with Andrew keep me from being happy.
*Posts will be at random more this up coming week. Going away this weekend then school is starting back up. Sorry! Keep checking back, I won't be gone for long! :) Thanks to all of you that keep coming back for more and for the comments. I truly appreciate it.


  1. Ahh, I truly love your blog, it's the most different from all the other blogs. I always recommend it to people looking for new blogs to check out.
    It's seriously good!

  2. I just found your blog and I really enjoyed it I caught up on it all I can't wait to see how the story goes.. I'll be back to read the next post!

  3. I just found your blog and caught up too. Very intriguing. I can't wait to see how things unfold with Andrew & Jessica, but also Cole & Jessica. I'm definitely hooked :)

  4. I'm dying for an update!!!!